Apr 19, 2007
Yesterday I tried my hardest to maintain the calm. I didn't yell at Kyran for going outside when I told him not to. When the laptop's power cord slid out and I had to reboot and find where I was...I didn't get upset. Even though Kyran wouldn't take a nap, I told myself that he'd go to bed early. Heather spilled milk all over the kitchen counter, floor, and me. Still, I didn't get angry at her, I calmly asked her to wait in her room while I cleaned up the mess. I almost lost my cool when I asked Mr. Shad (at 7:30pm) to pick up a couple things from the grocery store on his way home, and he said no. Not only did he say no, but he asked if he could just come home and I could go. Despite the fact that I had gone the night before and could not start dinner until he picked these things up.
I'm not the greatest mother or wife. But I do my best. I am an emotional person, it happens. Still, I never really go overboard and I apologize for being irrational when I am. So I cleaned up the house and waited for him. At 9 o'clock I went to the grocery store and McDonald's. Cooking pork chops, peas, and mac&cheese seemed a bit silly now. On the way, my Ipod broke, but I was okay. Mr. Shad would fix it. So, I pick up what I need, grab the food, and go home. It's then that I realize that my order had been screwed up. Normally I'd have gone home and dealt with it. The number of little things that had happened seemed to weigh on me though, so I came home crying. And I refused to tell Mr. Shad why, because I knew that if I just mentioned the burgers from McD's he would not be helpful. Instead he was very understanding, and went back to get the order right. He knows that I am already beginning to deal with the fact that he will be deploying in September, and that he will not be here this weekend.
Today I got my second PRGE package! It's a much better day today! I feel good. First, I'll let you all in on the secret of who my pal is! None other than the hostess herself, Sunne. Thanks Sunne, you've been fantastic so far, and the whole exchange has been running smoothly it seems. Ky was very excited about this whole thing, he was dancing around the table singing "whatcha got, watcha got, watcha got?!" What a haul! Handpainted Tussah Silk, a smidgen of purple merino, DPNs from size 1US - 6US, a needlecase, handmade soap, scissors, a catnip toy, a cute necklace and a little metal heart. The little metal heart made me think of this worry stone my mother used to have. Forgive the crappy pictures, as you remember, my camera died. *sniffle* I think I have a set of each of the DPNs, well except for the 4s and 5s, but you all know how rough I am on those! lol They will definitely come in handy.
Also, I forgot, I think, to share this package with you. It came in the mail almost
right after I got back. Fantastic. It was an order on Etsy from Traveling Rhinos
. I think the roving was like five bucks. Who can pass that up?? Also grabbed a pocky
button, man do I love that stuff. It's a priority one
! The stuff on the top also came in this package. She was making up for sending it a bit late since they were traveling. Which was actually fine because I
was gone. So it arrived as a bit of a surprise!
Labels: life, PRGE, procrastinating, purchases, wool/fleece/roving