Apr 18, 2008
Indefinitely. One word, a word that makes my heart break. I can't wrap my mind around it. I know that it wasn't meant the way it sounded. Generally people assume that it represents some vast expanse of time. All that was meant is that they can't give us an actual date. They are unsure and don't want to get our hopes up again.
What am I talking about, you ask. Here is what I saw in my email inbox at around 8:30 this morning:
"It is with a very heavy heart that I have to report that due to inclement weather, our Thunder Chicken return has been postponed indefinitely."
See that word? Indefinitely. It still feels thick on my tongue. There have been rumors that "indefinitely" will be about a week and a half. I'm not much sure how to feel, except for cheated. My husband was supposed to be in the advance party, they've been back since mid-March. He gave his spot to one of his fellow Marines whose wife is pregnant. I tried to tell myself I held no grudge against any of them, he did the right thing. And he did. Somehow, my heart right now can't accept that. I'm glad I don't have to see this wife and her husband, because I would say things I'd later regret. I realize I'm not the only one suffering in this situation, that doesn't make it any easier. That's really all I can say now.